ZERAHISM

Have you ever got angry with someone without knowing the exact reasons or maybe just denying the real reason? Have you ever felt that you’re in the point of no return, or in an all or none situation, or just like when all the big numbers of deal or no deal are gone and you’re left with the smaller numbers with the minimal banker’s offer? Have you ever been confused of which is which, like whether to follow your heart or your mind?…Well if you have, then congratulations! you are indeed human… But I think its times like these that we become more human than any other times because these are the times that we are vulnerable and thus, often so, in any forms of disguise, the enemy within takes advantage and comes in to lure us towards its own way of dealing with the situation. Hence, in times like these, I say, lets charge ourselves positively and combat the enemy within us.

During my second week in first year law, I was fed up with the terrorism brought by the thick books and insults from the professors. I was so vulnerable at that time. I began to hate everyone who could anwer questions I can’t, I began to act coldly towards the people I love and I became hard on myself. I lost sleep. I lost weight(which is also an advantage by the way..hehe) and I nearly lost myself. I had thoughts of quitting crossing my head until I really got hooked and decided to end it. But no. The saving grace came in just in the nick of time in a form of my mother’s words of wisdom. I’m just so blessed to have a mom like my mom who objectively saw my situation and at the same time emphatized with the pain I went through those times. So there, like a light bulb on top of my head, new ideas came in and this time its not more on what are the affirmative actions on how to combat the enemy within BUT, its more on focusing on the main stuff which is to study law DESPITE the enemy within or in other words just simply ignoring as if the enemy doesn’t exist. In psychology, I remember that’s one of the best ways to discipline a tantrumous child like me when I was in my younger years. It’s like doing nothing at all. Indeed, an economical strategy in terms of time, effort and energy. Maybe it’s one of the reasons why I survived my first semester in lawschool and my downmoments in general. More significantly, I could not have reached this far without my mother’s intervention which I attribute to the Higher Power’s intervention… So in gratitude to HIM, I’d like to share my new formula for magis. Here goes: MY POWER + THE HIGHER POWER = MAGIS! With that equation, I would like to believe that we could make it through this passing world with flying colors. God bless everyone!=)